I have come to the conclusion today that I can't let this go on any longer. I have written a blog in the past about my dental problems. Today, while eating a mini pepperoni roll two of my teeth broke in half. Thus, causing me even more pain. I have been in non-stop pain for the past few days and I can't take it any more.
My daughter came up to me today after my teeth broke and I was crying in pain/disbelief. (Pasta and breads are pretty much the only solids I can eat) Now, I'm afraid I am only down to a liquid (soups) diet. She looked at me, took the roll out of my hand, and placed it on my napkin. Then, she put her hands softly on each side of my face and looked into my eyes. Next, she said, "Mommy, we need to get this fixed. I don't like you crying like this."
This is when it hit me. Not only are my teeth slowly killing me (emotionally and probably physically) but they also effect her as well. So, I have made my decision... it's time to see if I can actually get them done. I wasn't able to before because I didn't have dental coverage. Now, I have state insurance and I pray that they will help me.
It's taken me so long to make this decision because of fear. Fear of being judged. Fear of being able to afford everything. Fear of the recovery. I pray, that if I could only have one thing done in my life, my dream to have my smile back, will be done.
I will keep writing on this process and hopefully it will have a beautiful light at the end of this very long tunnel. Then, I will be able to smile once again.
Praying for you and your teeth RaeBeth. Love U!
ReplyDeleteHoping all works o ut for you,you shouldnt be worried about what other people think, because it is you that has to deal with the pain you are going through not them. I'm glad you finally got medical help, I'm just happy they give my daughter it here, neither my husband or I have it, and there are times we are sick but we deal with it....Our daughter comes first and I am sure thats how you feel about yours. I hope they can help you with your situation :) Take care
ReplyDeleteThank you for coming by my blog so I could come and "meet" you. Although my health problems weren't dental, I know how it feels to have your own body deteriorating and it is out of your control. It is a trial I wouldn't wish on anyone. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteCindy at Rosehaven Cottage
I Love you honey, and we will do what it takes to get this done :~)
ReplyDeletei hope you somehow overcame your fear. I too have a terrible phobia of dentists. I shake uncontrollaby when I'm in a dentist's chair. But if seeing one will help ease the pain, restore your confidence..then do it. I hope all goes well. :)
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