I have come to the conclusion today that I can't let this go on any longer. I have written a blog in the past about my dental problems. Today, while eating a mini pepperoni roll two of my teeth broke in half. Thus, causing me even more pain. I have been in non-stop pain for the past few days and I can't take it any more.
My daughter came up to me today after my teeth broke and I was crying in pain/disbelief. (Pasta and breads are pretty much the only solids I can eat) Now, I'm afraid I am only down to a liquid (soups) diet. She looked at me, took the roll out of my hand, and placed it on my napkin. Then, she put her hands softly on each side of my face and looked into my eyes. Next, she said, "Mommy, we need to get this fixed. I don't like you crying like this."
This is when it hit me. Not only are my teeth slowly killing me (emotionally and probably physically) but they also effect her as well. So, I have made my decision... it's time to see if I can actually get them done. I wasn't able to before because I didn't have dental coverage. Now, I have state insurance and I pray that they will help me.
It's taken me so long to make this decision because of fear. Fear of being judged. Fear of being able to afford everything. Fear of the recovery. I pray, that if I could only have one thing done in my life, my dream to have my smile back, will be done.
I will keep writing on this process and hopefully it will have a beautiful light at the end of this very long tunnel. Then, I will be able to smile once again.