I've only been an angel Mom for about four months. In this short amount of time, I have noticed a few things that most don't realize their doing and end up being hurtful towards those who are angel Moms.
As an angel Mom, I want to talk about Dakota. I want to keep her memory alive. So, every chance I get I talk. When I can't talk, I have post cards with the cover of Dakota's story on it that I hand out. I use them as another form of telling people I have an angel as a daughter. I have been through the unthinkable. The card displays the small symbols on earth that remind me of her. I like to think of her as my butterfly and the Bible verse is one that wouldn't leave my mind the weekend I lost her.
Even though I am hurting on the inside, I am still proud of the little life that I had within me for nine full months. I want to be like any new mommy. I want to tell the world about her. But when I do, people turn away from me. Or they pretend to listen. Why would anyone want to hear about a baby who died? It's so sad.
HELLO!!! That baby who died, is my baby. I want to scream and shout it from the roof tops. I want everyone to know that baby you can't bare to listen about IS alive. It's heartbreaking when those who I think are the closest to me won't even listen. I hear excuse after excuse when I begin talking about Dakota.
Someone out there, please let me talk about my baby girl. Let me tell you how much I love her because I can't tell her. I have all this love for her and I can't share it with her. So, who can I share it with?
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